They named me Jenny

Is it how I say it? Is it in my diction? Do I not enunciate? (Well, my mom does complain about that.) But still. Jenny for Jill? It's even funnier how people say all kinds of names over the phone. Chill, DRILL, Bill. It's Jill! JILL!

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| 07:26 PM

Pure BS

It's that easy. I no longer look forward to it. With just a few sentences you took it all away.

Blame it one me. It's wholly my fault anyway. I ask questions, then don't believe the answers. I need three to four affirmations before I vaguely trust what you're saying.

Why ask my stupid questions, then?

Why can't I just ignore all those little balloon thoughts hanging around over my head? Why can't I just live in ignorance?

Maybe cause I'm really not like that.

So. Here I am, saying, "Fine, whatever." over and over and over again.

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| 08:56 AM

Carrie Bradshaw Moment

How much do I want to know?

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How important is the past to a future?

How much distance can you put between your mistakes and your effort to pick yourself up from the mess you've made of your life?

(warning: rambling ahead)

A person's past determines his character -- so the reasons why you love the person you're with are mainly because of how he was molded by his past. But how much of that do you want to lean? Do you need details? Names? Dates? More descriptions that you know would only kill you? Every reality he had that once was, even if it's all in the past, is still a reality without you. Why is that thought so difficult to deal with?

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When will I ever learn to give my trust? I mean really trust someone. I can't go on forever blaming what happened to me for it. It's been years -- I should be over it already. It seems like my mind adapted all these ideas and insights but my emotions got stuck somewhere.

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All these thoughts sparked by a chick flick. Wow.

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| 06:57 PM

Sock it to me.

| 04:15 PM

In bloom

So here I am at the Learning Resource Unit of the building. I was thinking of making a really nice update but alas, I am just not in the mood to write. Hehe.

Life's been pretty good. I've felt so content these past weeks. And yes I have someone to thank for that.

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Oh, Valentine's day came and went. I'm not really the type to celebrate that day but I was really disappointed when I heard that I missed this thing the guys in our class did for the girls. (disappointed to the point of tears, haha) They gave each girl a rose. Awww. We had absolutely no idea that they were up to something. Plus when they were giving the roses the glee club started singing "Ikaw" in the hallway. But heck I wasn't there so how would I know. I had to go from UST to Makati to submit blood samples to the laboratory for our research then go back to UST for a quiz. Nice.

Oh. I realized that girls really like receiving flowers, even if they say they don't. And there's something about getting flowers in public. Hehehe.

Sock it to me.

| 01:27 PM