Entries for August, 2005

Pseudo no more.

I know I'm not an automatic smiler but good thing my reflexes were working properly just then, although I did smile a bit too much. Hah.

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I don't want to tell my mom how stressed I've been these past few days. I KNOW she'd tell me that it's due to lack of sleep. And I KNOW she'd say something about the band. No way. Uh-uh. Not giving up that.

Yes, I know. I'm stubborn. Can you blame me, though? Music is my release.

I fell asleep during a departmental test the other day. Good job. I was trying so hard to keep my eyes open, to no avail. I could have done better had I stayed alert long enough to understand the questions more. Grrr. The moral of the story is: drink coffee with anything I eat for lunch. Or don't eat before a test. (Ironic. Med student talking here!) Carbohydrates do make one sleepy.

Getting more sleep is an impossible option.

So now I'm in a state of dehydration from drinking too much coffee. 3-4 cups per day isn't healthy.

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"Ehh... ummm, ano name mo?"

Big blunder right there thank you very much, especially since the person's name starts with an E. Hahaha!

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Dress socks. Nicely formed extensors. Capable hands. Soothing tones.

Bisaya never sounded that good.

5 tweaked.

unbeknownst | 01:09 AM

Twas a great week ender.

The prelims week went by quickly. Too quickly, in fact. In a blink, it was Friday morning already and we were on our way to Glorietta for lunch and a movie. So there we were trying to decide where to eat, and my classmate said, “Let’s go to Friday’s coz it’s Friday today!” Hah! Chicken Alfredo, onion rings, Chicken strips with the fries = stuffed. We had an iced tea drinking contest. The loser borrowed a hat from one of the servers and had a picture taken wearing it. (The loser was me!) We were laughing our heads off -- a great release after the whole week of stress. And what better way to continue doing so than to watch a movie that didn’t need working brain cells? We watched (gasp) D’ Anothers. The storyline was patchy. So what? We all needed to laugh and laugh we did.

I had coffee with the girls that night at Baang. I love their New York cheesecake. We all agreed that it was addicting. We had this conversation that made us realize how we weren’t young anymore. Chicken inasal for dinner somewhere along Bohol. Nice. (but Jay-J’s was better).

“Masaya ka nga sa Med.”
“Lagi ka ngang masiyahin eh!”

Hmm. I liked that. Med’s good for me. Hehe.

5 tweaked.

unbeknownst | 10:53 PM

Gotta sweep away those cobwebs

Would you still consider me as a friend if I converted to another religion?

I said of course. She didn't have to ask me that.

Maybe her friends' opinions mattered to her. But really, religion is something you choose for yourself. I think I said something a bit off because I asked her a question that questioned how sure she was. Isn't that what a friend should do? (It's hard talking about something that serious over SMS.) She didn't reply to my message. I truly, honestly believe that if she wants to convert then she should do it for the right reasons. She told me she's at peace there and the worship is more alive. I don't think that's enough. I wanted her to think about the beliefs and the doctrines that she'd have to accept and hold on to with all her heart before she made her decision. Conversion is changing the way you think -- the way you live. I wanted her to know everything that her decision would entail.

But that's just me. I sent her another SMS this afternoon and told her to do what she wanted to do.

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I wonder how God feels when He loses someone from his flock.

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unbeknownst | 07:25 PM

Goos and gaas

I jokingly asked my mom before, "What if I'm really autistic?" She answered me with, "What's your problem? You're through with college and no one complained." Haha.

We had a gig at 6Underground last Saturday. I'd forgotten how comfortable it was to play there. And it was touching to have the people working there remember us. Good set, good set -- even though Marcus said my voice was grating into their ears. Good thing I switched mics in the middle of the set.

While I was browsing a while ago I saw her page and wondered how he feels when he thinks about her. I was sad when they broke up. I liked them as a pair. They seemed so... together and complimented each other so well. But things happened so never mind that I even thought this.

I got to vegetate in front of the television yesterday for the first time in MONTHS. My mind ran free during commercials. Lots of images and random thoughts about trivial things. Silliness has gotten the better of me ever since the start of the school year. I think it's a form of adaptation.

7 tweaked.

unbeknownst | 10:56 AM